Catharsis

So I finally sorted my life out. I got rid of something that was very unhealthy for me and traded it for something that is the best thing for me ever. I am thoroughly enamored with Kenzie. She is my new girlfriend and we just seem to be made for each other. Love is grand and it makes life amazing. I really am worried about her (the old girl) though. She is spiraling down a strange and frightening path. I really do wish her luck. Maybe she will one day find happiness. In other news, I am happier, more sane, and less stressed out now. No more constant worrying of fighting. Just pure bliss. As long as she doesn't murder Kenzie we are good :)

In to the Woods

Everybody should, when they get the chance, just drop everything and run towards the nearest wooded area and stay there for at least a day. Something about being surrounded by nature just makes you feel happy and one with the earth. That may sound pretentious but I don't care. Find some friends or go by yourself but just get away from the city. Get some dirt in your hair and in between your toes. Find bugs and animals, new plants, smell the air and the trees and just GO!!! You will be so much better for the experience. Its healthy as can be.

Time to Turn the Page

In life, sometimes you just know when its time to take the next step. I like using a book as a metaphor for my existence. Every time I turn another page of my life I come closer to where I should be in the end. I love rereading past chapters of this book in my head and I appreciate that every page is necessary to complete the novel. But, as I said, sometimes you just know when a certain chapter or section is over and you just really want to find out what happens next! Life is a real page turner that way. Transitions are not always smooth, but without moving forward we become stuck in neutral or even slip into reverse. That is honestly no way to read.

Summertime Ramblings

Okay so I haven't posted anything in a while but I have truly been very busy. Just got back from a beautiful trip to Maui with the family (see FB for the pics) and besides that I have been lifeguarding and also trying to enjoy my summer. Of course I've still been spending as much time with her as possible. I'm not sure where I left off in talking about her but really not much has changed. We still hang out and really enjoy each-other's company. We have had countless ups and downs but enough ups to make the downs seem trivial and meaningless. I have learned a lot this summer. I have also listened to a ton of music. I feel like these two things are related because I can sum up a lot of the things I have learned this summer in song lyrics. I realize that is corny as hell but its still true. For instance, from Billy Joel's "Vienna", I have honestly learned that "when the truth is told, you can get what you want or you can just get old". The amount of worrying I have done so far in my life is unhealthy and useless. Doing what makes you happy is the only way to live, not wrapped up in so much worry over what will make others happy or what is "right" that you tear yourself apart. Of course, logic and reasoning must still come into play as well as SOME restraint haha. But yeah, thats one of many things I have learned so far this summer.